Tanya Rad

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Scared of Happy?!

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Talk about music making you realize something about yourself you didn't even realize... 

 

thats exactly what happened to me this weekend when  I started listening to Fifth Harmony's album 7/27... In particular their song "Scared Of Happy"....

 

Look at these lyrics: 

I never knew a love that doesn't hurt...Feeling the heat and the burn....

 

usually fearless... Why am I scared of happy? 

I'm afraid of nothing, I'm afraid of no one....

 

And it kinda hit me. I keep asking myself why I'm single? I'm dating but I never get too close... Which is so odd because I used to go from relationship to relationship no problem... 

 

well that lyric hit me hard, I never knew a love that didn't hurt. I've been burned many times in my life.. But this last one burned me to the point that I think I'm actually scared to be happy with someone again. 

im scared to get into anything else because I'm fearing that exact same pain is going to follow at some point....

 

Thank you 5H for making me realize this giant problem in my life...  The first step is recognizing the problem , now it's time to do something about it! 

 

 

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